Hi Dan, Nice to meet you. I do have a psychiatrist and I am on Prozac which of all the meds I've tried works best and I was on Geodon for a while a few years ago because they wanted so much to treat my bipolar disorder (runs in the family) even though I don't think I need it. My little manic episodes are the occasional rewards I get for all the time I spend down. Pre- "tree Incident" as I now refer to last summer's accident, I had long since taken myself off of the bipolar med ... I have never been on a high dose.-it makes me feel out of control. Everybody's bipolar is different and I have to say I am more type II, that my manic episodes are mild and manifest as "perkiness", "chattiness" and general good mood - not such bad things. Until I was thirty I had a lot of anger and rage which has all but disappeared since I was first treated with an antidepressant. And I really was happy pre-tree. When I was in hospital (rehab) they packed me down to my shrink because they thought I was manic and he put me back on Geodon...I was only having some serious anxiety attacks - not such an unusual thing when one hits a really big tree, destroys their car, breaks their neck and isa stuck in a wheel chair. I was not manic. The psychiatrists keep wanting to turn up the dose but every time I do increase for a few weeks I begin having the dark places come to visit more often and I just can't handle it so I back off to 60mg a day. I don't know what to tell the doctor next time I go in. Talk therapy would be nice but I have no income so can't afford copays.
Anyway, I remembered being told about the Reeve Foundation when I was in the rehab hospital and I've done exactly what you suggested. I have made a couple of friends here - one in Spain! and I am reading some self help books about my hyper sensitivity and also a book on Zen living. Just trying to help myself. I've also applied for a service dog for Balance so I can walk more safely as well as for emotional support so I am trying to be pro active. Thanks for chiming in - I am planning a walking program for myself as soon as weather permits and I have supervision. Since I live in a very rural area (no gyms within 20 miles or more) I'd love to get a new machine called the Nu Step for aerobic exercise but it's much too expensive (they had one at the hospital)...I will post back here with any changes good or bad. I am blessed with a top shelf husband but I am estranged from my son and my childhood family but that was all going on pre-tree. For now I'm trying to stick to one day at a time. Thanks again, Moongink/Carolyn-